To: Ye of Little Faith

Do you ever feel like this guy in the picture? "Finding my faith" says his sign. I've proclaimed Christ as my savior for a long while, I still hold up that same sign. The finding part is not so much a search for salvation or even redemption in one form or another, I know where love & grace comes for. The finding part of my sign is more of a What Am I Going to Do With My Life for His Glory plea.
Tonight after he got off work, Prince Charming stopped by...with pie. :D I mean, it was already enough for my little heart to go pitter patter that he was able to come over, but top it off with delicious, wonderfully baked, perfectly crusted khalua pie in hand!!! We splayed ourselves on the small sofa with Mama & Sissy while we watched tv & ate pie. It wasn't until after he left that I realized that for the entirity of his visit, I wasn't relaxed. I hadn't relaxed. While everyone was laying out with their feet up on the faux leather ottomans, I kinda just sat there, somewhat stiff-backed, just sitting. I couldn't relax.
Once PC had left, I texted him an apology for any awkwardness I gave off. I had things on my mind, and I couldn't relax. He asked what things were on my mind and I replied 'The usual :\ Money worries & looking for a job.'
To which he replied: Matthew 6:25-34! Read it now!
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Now, PC & I have been working on growing spiritually together, and giving each other verses throughout the day is something we're trying out. It's still fairly new to him, sharing his faith, so just the fact that he'd sent me a verse & said read it now!!! to me, meant that A) it was something very important, and B) he's the most wonderful guy in the world for kicking my worrisome butt with good ol' fashioned Biblical backup!! :P
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Here it is: Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
First of all, it says DO NOT WORRY ABOUT YOUR LIFE. Didya get that?? I read it twice through trying to make it stick in my brain! Here it is again: DO NOT WORRY ABOUT YOUR LIFE!
Second of all, it even says, worrying does nothing to improve your life. It does you no good.
Third of all, and most important, TRUST IN OUR HEAVENLY FATHER, HE KNOWS WHAT YOU NEED. SEEK FIRST HIS KINGDOM & HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS. Don't worry. Why would you? Trust God! He is ALMIGHTY! ALMIGHTY!!!! That's not like He's a cool guy, or pretty neat. Nope. He's ALMIGHTY. He knew you before you were born. He loves you. Trust in His perfect plan, may not be what you thought, wanted or hoped for - but if you SEEK FIRST HIS KINGDOM AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS, you'll realize (and by you, I mean me) that He'll keep you. You're kept. So trust Him.
I don't know if I'll get a job today, tomorrow or two months from now. I don't know if I'll be financially set. I don't know if I'll be able to pay off student loans. I don't know. I DON'T KNOW. But He does.
I'll continue to trust in His timing with the help of someone who has already shown me God's blessings when you least expect them. :)

From: Me