To: All Who Worry

I know that I worry too much. It's been an awful habit of mine, like tapping my foot or making witty, sarcastic jokes, that seems to have been engraved into my being since the younger days. We all have our little habits - sometimes, depending on what they are, they can shape us tremendously. Think: a person with OCD, obviously that's a habit to the extreme. But that compulsion becomes part of that person's identity - thus, since I make witty repartee, I've become bright & entertaining. Hahaha.
In any case, since I was a big eyed little girl, I've always been a worrier warrior - I partially blame my mother, as we all do. I say warrior because sometimes my worrying champions even my own selfish expectations, and I'll begin worrying about others. I'm excellent at worrying, really I am.
The worry of the moment, which I'll share & you'll read about, because you're here, is that I was asked by a friend (*cough Casa cough*) to sing this upcoming Sunday at a church thing. We're going to a Homeless Outreach type event, and he texted me on Tuesday night & said he needed a "lady singer" which is what he always calls us. He then gave me the name of the songs we'd be doing "Before the Throne of God Above" (an old hymn that I love), "Mighty to Save", "Hosanna", "Holy Fire" & "Time Has Come". Now. I. Love. Hillsong. I really do. And I'm waaay looking forward to their concert next week. BUT. In terms of singing solos, they're not really friends of my voice! :P lol I don't know why!? I can sing them, but they're always right between my head voice & the my chest voice, & I haven't yet mastered switching between the two.
The last time I sang worship at church I was so nervous. Mmm. Scratch that. I was the epitome of nervous. And I had to solo "Lead Me to the Cross" which I also love! And then all the other songs I just did bgvs on, so it wasn't that big of a deal. Plus, Casa plays like a rock band, I'm sure you couldn't hear me anyhow!
But for this Sunday, I'm thinkin it's going to be acoustic. AND I doubt there'll be microphone. I sing pretty quietly :/ so I'm nervous. And worried. I don't know 3 of the songs, & I think Casa'll have me solo "Hosanna" (which is difficult for me). I'm extremely nervous, anxious & worried.
So worried in fact that I'm thinking of backing out. Not as a chicken, but as Casa could sound better with someone else. Idk, I'm still messing with the idea. Of course, I'd love your opinion!
Ironically enough, or..not ironically & completely & totally God trying to show me something, I got my morning verse e-mailed to me and it was this:

Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, "So shall your offspring be." Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead -- since he was about a hundred years old -- and that Sarah's womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. Romans 4:18-21

I only read it once this morning when I sleepily woke up & checked my phone. The way I interpreted it was "don't doubt". There's no need to. That's what faith is for. Now I'm not sure if I still should on Sunday, there's a bit of a time constraint, but it's something I'll definitely pray about (& if you would too, that'd be most appreciated)!
:)
From: Me
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